Monday, Jan 11, 2010

Well for those who need to know the packers did loose, but I am not as depressed as I thought I would be. ENOUGH OF THAT!
I was thinking about life and God. You know many people go there whole lives without knowing love or without knowing God. As a kid my aunts and even my grandparents taught me about God. Yes I did got to church with my mom and I did go with my dad when he went with whatever women he was dating at them time, but to be honest I feel like my teaching came from my grandparents and my aunt Ginger and aunt Judy.
As for love, okay i know my family loves me and I know that they did then, that I have no doubt, but one never really knows love until that spec ail someone comes into your life. There is many kinds of love. 1st you have the love a child has for his/her parents and grandparents, they are people in your life who you should trust and look up too, 2nd you have the love you have for your siblings, u grow up with them and they are not always trust worthy but u know that u can trust them with your life when it came down to it, 3rd is the love one has for a child, you bring them into this world, or adopt them, you raise them and pray that on their 18th birthday you have taught them enough for them to get by and you know that he/she is there and you are there for them. You sit with them when they are sick and help them with all their problems that arise in their lifetime, then one day when you are old and sick he/she turns the tables and takes care of you, then their is that special love.....
OH you know what I mean, the kind of love that when you think of that person you feel you r heart skip a beat, when they are mentioned you tend to daydream about them and you. Then if, it is right, you are married and your life has now became one. And you live your life together.....Now here comes the kicker, you start to act alike and think alike, hey you even have arguments, but that is live. I know I have that special person in my life. Yes we have our arguments and yes we have our problems, just like all couples do. My point of this is through all the loves in your life, you spouse, you children, and you family, does anyone ever really stop to think about the BIG LOVE! The ultimate love, the ultimate sacrifice. As I read and become more aware of God and all the things in this world, I realize that there is only one ultimate love, one ultimate sacrifice. John 3:16 and 17 says: " For God so loved the world that he gave His only son that whoever believes in Him will not perish but have ever lasting life. For God sent His son into the world not to condemn, but that the world through Him would be saved." I know He loves me and I know that when I die I will be in heaven with my husband and other family members who have gone before me. (NO my hubby is not dead. I don't think I could survive without him)! I always said my best friend, the one who knows me better than anyone is my husband, but that is wrong. He created me, He is there for me when no one else, not even Steve is, he knows my heart. I am grateful for my life and i am grateful that I know I have entrant life because He died for my sins.
BTW I had a little slip on my diet! No I did not eat chocolate but i had more mac and cheese than I should have. I made baked chicken but I let it soak a bit too much in the Maranad I believe. But all in all it was a good meal. Plus for breakfast I had an cheese omelet, 6 sausage links, little ones, and 2 pieces of toast. I slipped and I am apologizing to myself. Forgiveness is there just do better tomorrow! LOL!